wen|biaowaibiaoli wangxiyuan caobinling
编辑|付晓玲
“chuguoyimin,kendingyaozuohaowuzhishenghuojiangjidezhunbei。”
duiyiminkenengdailaideluocha,yutonghaobubihui。shenzhizaitayanli,guoneidewuzhishenghuoyijingguoshengle,chuguoweichangbushifanpuguizhen。
gengzhongyaodeshi,wuyudejiangdi,huidailaijingshendefengfu——zaiguonei,tayoucheyoufangyoubianzhi,haiyousigelaorenqiangzhedaihaizi,jibenyijingtangpingle;chuleguo,zhenzhengdefendoucaisuankaishi。
dantayefaxian,yiminjiuxiangweicheng,zaizijixiangwangchuguodulideshihou,bushaoyiminyezaifanrunhuiliu。
“guoneijichujiaoyuhao,bufenxingyeyebijiaozhuanqian,suoyixianghuiguofazhan。”zheishiyutonglejiedaodehuiliuyuanyin。
danwomenyujiweiyimindezhongchanliaoguohoufaxian,jiaoyuheshiyezhishibiaomian,zhenzhenggouqixiangchoude,kenengshiyiminhoudeshiluoyubugan。
chuleguocaizhidao,cbdbailingyuanlaizhinengdangjiudianfuwuyuan,yigeyuedianfeihuishaodiao5000yuan,huaxuekekenengshikanyixueqidianying,erzaiyaohaodewaiguopengyou,yehuixiaozhewenniquzhongguoxubuxuyao“mimiyan”。
erdengnimopinglengjiaoshiyinglehaiwaishenghuo,moranhuishou,kandaoguoneipengyouzhengzhengrishang,zijifanerzouqilexiapolu。
zongzhiruguoneixinbugouqiangda,ruguozichanbugoufenghou,zhongchanyiminhenyoukenengchengweilingrenhouhuidexuanze。
一、北京七套房,羡慕海外一张床
zhaohuideqinyoumentingdaotayaoyimindexiaoxi,doujuedetadenaozibeimenjiale。
“duoshaorenxianmunimenxianzaideshenghuo。”zheishiqinyoumenquanzuzhaohuidehua,yeshishishi——taheqizinianjiqingqingjiujishenguoqizhongceng,pingshichaojiuwanwu,niandiyinxingkahainengduochusiwushiwan,riziguodeshunfengshunshui。
danwuxuweishengjifachou,buyiweizhemeiyoufannao。
“linglingling……”shenyeshierdian,shuimengzhongdezhaohuifuqibeituruqilaidelingshengjingxing,qizishenxiyikouqi,huadaojietingjian。
laidiandeshitadelingdao,rangtaxieyifenhuibaocailiao,yaoqiucirizaoshangtijiao。
juzhaohuijieshao,qizidanweishi“lingdaoyijuhua,xiashupaoduantui”dedianxing,suoyourenweishangshicong,xialebanyeyaosuishidaiming。xiangzheizhonglingchenbuzhigongzuodejuqing,yijingshangyanguowushucile。
qizijiduxiangyaocizhi,danzheigetiefanwanshijializhengqulaide,yitazishendenengli,genbenwufazaiconglinshijielizhaodaogenghaodegongzuo,zhinengkukujianao。
zhaohuisuiranmeineimejuan,keshimeitianhechakanbaodeshenghuo,rangtajuederenshengyiyanjiuwangdaotoule。
yinci,ouranjianfaxianzijifuheaozhoujishuyimindetiaojianhou,fuqiliangxinlixiangwangyimindezhongzikaishibuduanfengzhang:“yiminhaoxiangnengbayibeizidangliangbeiziguo。”
butongyuzhaohuidetufaqixiang,yutongyijiadeyiminjihuayoulaiyijiu。
congyingguoliuxuehuilaihou,zhangfuyizhiwuxianhuainianzaidabuliediandaoderizi。neishideta,keyixuezijireaidezhuanye,zuozijihaoqideketi,yiyanjiushengdiyimingdechengjibiye。
danhuiguozhihou,luojiquandoubianle。jinrongbenke+lvyoushuoshideziyouzhuanyezuhe,hennanzhaodaoduikougongzuo,shangbaicijianlitoudidoumeilexiawen。xiangyaoyangjiahukou,zhidetoukaoqinqidedianshanggongsi。
dankongjiangchengweiguanliceng,nanmianhuibeirendaizheyouseyanjingkandai。zhangfuyehenpaichizhichangfuzaderenjiguanxi,“taningyuanzaiguowaizuomugong,yebuxiangzaishurengongsidangsuoweideguanliceng。”
yushi,zaizhangfudeqianglieyaoqiuxia,yutongyijiakaishibanliyimin。chenggongnadaofengyekabujiu,tahelianggewajiubeizhangfufengfenghuohuodidaishangfeiji,duandengjianada。
daoleminsu,zhangfuyishoubaozhehenaideerbao,yishoujidabaofanhuiben,zuishanghaibuwangdingzhuyutongduoxiuxi、bielaolei,yuguoneimenmenbuledexingxiangpanruoliangren。
yutongzhidao,tazhengpoqiedizhengmingzijidedandang,rangtaxiangxinyiminhouyijiarenyehuiguodehenhao。
“bierenqianxinwankuquluoma,erwomenjiachushengjiuzailuoma。”laobeijingrensangderucipingjiazijideshenghuo。
congxiaozaibeijingdayuanlizhangda,zuoyongbeijing7taofangchan,sangdedeshenghuokanqilaihaowuyali,dangangxuziyuandeburuyi,rangtapinpinshanxianlikaideniantou。
“xianzaihaikanbuchulaihaizishishenmewenti,nindaihaiziquzuoyigenaojiyechuancijianchaba,yiliaofeidagaishi10wankuai。”
daidaerzikanyigexiaomaobing,yishengyishanglaijiukaichu“hairentingwen”dejianchafangshi,tabuganmaoxian,zhaoleyiweizhongyipengyouqiuzhen,jieguozhishiduodongzheng,zhenjiupeiheanshendezhongyaojiukeyizhiliao。sangdesonglekouqi,qingxingmeiranghaizishounaojiyechuancidezui。
danzheiyuanyuanbushijieshu。xiaoerziyinzhuishengzhiqiuyi,dankanbingchichiguabushanghao。jiaojidesangdehaoburongyiguashang400kuaidezhuanjiahao,zhuanjiagaosuta,zheizhongxiaoshoushumenzhenjiukeyizuo,meibiyaoguazhuanjiahao。
ranerdaolemenzhen,tayoubeigaozhi,shoushuyaoquanshenmazuizhuyuan,qiejiazhangbunengpeitong。bishihaizicaiyisuiduo,sangdeshizaiwufafangxin,piqiuyoubeimenzhenyishengbunaifanditidaolezhuanjiayishineili。
erzhuanjiadehuida,rangtadadieyanjing:“yaozuoyekeyi,quduimiansirenyiyuanjiaogehongbao,wojiukeyibangni。”
zheijianshizhihou,xinhuiyilengdesangdejiakuaileyiminjincheng,touyebuhuidibenzhexiongyalideyongjuqule。
tayewubiqingxingzijidejueding:zaiguoneilaihuitilejicipiqiudeshoushu,daoxiongyalizhihualejixiaoshi,shuayibaoyifenqianmeihuajiujiejuelewenti。
dangran,yiminsuiranbaituolejiudeguiji,dantongshiyeyiweizhe,xuyaorongruxindehuanjing。
二、老外的松弛感,终究是舶来品
bangwan6dian,xiaoyingtuikaichuanghu,tiankongyijingruwuyebanqihei,jiedaoshangyigexingrendoumeiyou,wanlaijuji。
nuoweidedongjiheiyemanzhang,zaoshang10diantiancaimengmengliang,xiawu3dianjiudaolehuanghunshike,erzheiyangderiziyaochixudabannian。
“taimanzhangle,ganjueyitianzenmeyeguobuwan。”xiaoyingshuo,“niyaoshizaiguoneisidianbanxiaban,neiniketaizhidaogaiganmale。danshizaizheili,xiabanzaizaonizhiyenenghuijiatangzhe。”
danjiusuanshizaiyouzhemingmeitianqidenanouguojiaxibanya,yiminshenghuoyeweibijiuyangguangcanlan。
gangluodixibanyawalunxiyadeshihou,liyajianzhibuganxiangxinzijideyanjing:yichuangchuangloufangkanqilaihuijiu、pobai,qiangshangbaoluzhedianhuaxian,dianxianyituoyituodizaidishangluanrengzhe,zhayikanhaiyiweihuidaoleshangshiji90niandaidezhongguo。
“tingzhi”shixibanyazheixieniandaijitazuidadeganshouzhiyi,shizhijinrixibanyarenduizhongguodeyinxianghaitingliuzailuohouniandai。liyafaxian,xibanyadianshitaibofangzhongguoxinwenshi,peideyiranshihuangtunininglaoshangou,renmenduanzhefanwandunzaidishangchifandehuamian。
xuduodangdirenduizhongguodepingjia,jiushi“buzhideyiqudedisanshijieguojia”。dantandaoxibanya,guanjiancijiubianchenglezihaode“chudairibuluodiguo”“dizhonghaidemingzhu”。
ershijishang,tasuojieshidexibanyapengyou,shenghuojiandanersongchi:meitianzhongfutongyangdehuodong,xiaofeitongyangdeshangpin,shenghuoxintiaojiushi“jinchaoyoujiujinchaozui”,zhiyaoyoutaiyangshai,youpijiuhe,youhaibiantangjiuwanshidaji。
“tamenyichengbubiandaokepa。”liyashuo,duicongxiaobeijiaoyuyaoqinfen、jijixiangshang,zonghuixiangyaobariziguodegenghao、nulizhengqiandetalaishuo,xibanyadechihuanrangrenwusuoshicong。
“zaizheili,dengkuaidishiyizhongzhemo,yinweiniyongyuandoubuzhidaokuaidiyuanshenmeshihoulai。”youyici,liyaxiangjiyigejijian,yuanbenshi24xiaoshiqujian,dankuaidiyuanbujianzongying。
dengdaodisantian,kuaidiyuanzhongyushangmenle,liyajingyadiwenta,“nizhidaoqukuaidideshijianshiliangtianqianma?”duifanglizhiqizhuangdishuo,“zhidaoa,danwoneitianmeikong。”
leisideshiqingfashenglewushuci:nianyefandianlegewaimai,2gexiaoshilefandoumeisonglai;bugeyachi,yayihuiyinweiheqitayishengliaotianerbucuo。
xiguanleyouguijucaichengfangyuandeliya,meicipengshangzheixielipudeshiqing,doujuedezijigegeburu。xiangbisuixingdexibanya,yimindaoruidiandefeifeiyijia,yikaishixingyundiganshoudaolebeizunzhong。
feifeidezhangfuzaishoudaooffershi,jingyadifaxianruidiangongsijizijikailezuigaoqiwangxinzi。hrgaosuta,“nishuoguoanzhaozuidiqiwangxinzidehuanihuikaolv,danwomenzhenchengdixiwangninengjiaru,erbujinjinshikaolv。”
dantamenmeixiangdaodeshi,gongsiguodudebaohuyekenengdailaifuxiaoying。
“woshengbingle,jintianbunengqugongzuo,xiangqingyixiajia。”xinyuangongkaigongdiyitian,feifeidezhangfujiushoudaoleduifangdeyoujian。tameitaidanghuishijiuzhunjiale,danduifangyibingjiushiyigexingqi。
“woyoujingshenyali,yishengshuowoxuyao3geyuedejiaqi”“yinweishentiyuanyin,womeitiankenengzhinenggongzuo2xiaoshi”“baoqian,wodeshuimianbuhao,jintiankongpawufagongzuole”……
dangzheiyangdeyoujianzaijiexialaidebannianlifenzhitalaishi,feifeidezhangfuzhinengzaiwunaizhixiachengdanqizheiweinvshidegongzuo。
“ruidiandefalvhenzhuzhongbaohulaodongzhedequanyi,gongsibunengsuiyicaiyuan。”feifeigandaohenwunai,“danzheiyangduiqitadetongshibingbugongping。”
bujinruci,gaofulijiuxiangmingyunkuizengdeliwu,wangwangdouzaianzhongbiaohaolejiage。
三、从移民开始,人生走起了下坡路
kuangquanshuiyiping25yuan,pijiuyiping60yuan,zuibianyidefanguanyederenjun200kuai……napayijingzainuoweishiyunianle,xiaoyinghaishishibushijiuhuibeizheilidewujiabeici,“wofaxianbaguoneidongxidejiagezaijiayige0,jiunengbianchengnuoweidewujia。”
zaiguoneishibiaozhunyixianzhongchandeta,zenmeyebuhuixiangdao,zijijingranhuiyouyitianbeidongtiangaoangdequnuanfeibidexuehuishaochaihuo。
“nuoweishikaodianqunuande,womenjiafangzixiao,dongtianyigeyuededianfeiyeyou5000kuai,neixiefangzidadiande,dianfeiyigeyue1wanxiaoyisi。”
weileshengqian,xiaoyingzhuanmenzhaodangdidenongminmaichaihuo,1000kuaidemutounengzaibilulitingdabangedongtian。
yimindaoxibanyadeliya,gengshiyanzhengzhengdikanzhecunkuanyi8beidesuduliushi。meixueqijinvershangqianouyuandeshubenfei、xiaochefei、xiaofufeimaidandeshihou,tadoujuedexiaobuchulai。
2012nianqianwangxibanyadeshihou,liyaquanjiashi“feiyingliyimin”deshenfen,zheiyiweizhetamenzhinengzaixibanyaxiaofeihejuzhu,bunengjiuyehezhuanqian,“qishizaiqian5nianhelvyouqianzhengmeiyoutaidadechabie。”
denghaoburongyijixibanyazuoman5niangongxian,nadaoleyongjuzige,liyaquefaxian,zaidangdigenbenzhaobudaozijideweizhi。
“xibanyadegaoduanchanyefengmaolinjiao,jiusuanyouyeshiliujibendiren,nenggoujidaoyiminde,jiushixiwan、chushi、paotang、maiyifuzheixielandajiedegongzuo。”
jiulianchuangyeyeshichuchupengbi。“shejigelogobujiulianggezima,zenmehuizhi300ou?”tingzhefandianjingliwuqingdejujue,feijingjieshilebantiandeliyafufu,zhidezhuanshenlikai。
congqianzaishanghai,liyadezhangfuyouzhezijideguanggaogongsi,dabadepingmiansheji、sheyingshexiangdedanzizhudongzhaoshangmen。liyazaipinpaigongsideshichangbumenrenzhi,zuoweicongmingyouwaixiangdeshanghaixiaonan,zaiquanliyepochidekai。
chuguoqian,fufuerrendexiangxianghenmeihao,“pingzhetounaohenulizongnenglizu”。danshouruguilingdexianshijisuiletamendeyiqiehuanxiang。
liyajuexinfangxiashenduan,takandaoyouhuashangkaidedaxingshipindiancangkuquzhaoguanliyuan,suiranzaojiutingshuozheifengongzuoyizhougongzuo6tian、meitiangongzuo10xiaoshiyishang,liyahaishidaledianhua。
dianhuaneitouwenta,“xiaomeinaliren?womenyaokankanshibushitongxiang,haozhaoguyidian。”tingdaotashishanghairenzhihou,duifangdeyudiaoshashibiandeweimiaoqilai,“o——shanghairenhaoxiangchibuqikua。”
qidetadangchangguaduandianhua,“tamenzheixieminshang、zheshangzaizheilibaotuan,budaiwairenwande。”
gengtongkudeshi,meicihuiguo,hepengyoumenjucan、liaotiandeshihou,liyadouhuishenshendihuaiyi,zijiyimindejuedingshibushizuocuole。
cengjingshichangbudetongshi,caishanglezhibodianshangdefengkou,nianrubaiwan;yeyoulaotongxuezaitizhineigongzuowending,shengzhijiaxin,rizipingdanerxingfu。
kanzhepengyoumenfenxiangzhezijideshenghuo,youshitayehuihuanxiang,dangnianyaoshiliuzaishanghaidehuahuishishenmeyang,“yinggaihuiyouyifennengshixianjiazhidegongzuo,womenlianggerenhuinulizhuanqian,zaishanghaidezichandoujihaiziliuzhe,dengtazhangdazaisongtachuguoliuxue。”
danxianzai,tayijingcuoguolefazhandehuangjinshiqi,zhiyeshengyabujinfantui,zichanyezaibutingdisuoshui。
pengyoumenanweita,“nichuguoshiweilenverdejiaoyu,zhishaoxianzaihaizitebiekuaile,shuomingnidexinxuemeiyoubaifei。”
liyazhinengkuxiao,baxibanyadejiaoyudangzuoxiaohuajiang,“youweipengyoudenverzaixibanyashixueba,houlaiyouqumeiguodushu,shuxuebeipandingweilingjichu,yaocongtouxueqi,pengyoudebizidouchadianqiwaile。”
liyanvershangdeguojixuexiao,jiaoyuzhiliangyeyiyannanjin。nverjinnianyijingshichusanbiyeban,huaxuelaoshizaiketangshangfanglezhengzhengyixueqidedianying;shuxuelaoshijiyigeanlirangchaoxie,nvermeikandongxiangwenlaoshi,laoshihuiyingdao,“zheinidoubuhui?zijiquxiang,niyaoxuehuizixue。”
chule“kuaile”,liyabuganzaiduixibanyadejiaoyubaoyoushenmeqiwang,“anzhao1:7dehuilvhuazheqian,quedebudaotongdengdejiazhi。”
liyaxianzaimeitiandoubaizheshouzhitousuanrizi,niantaozhedenghaizizhangda,tajiuhexianshenghuidaoshanghaishenghuo。dankanzheliulidijiangzhexiyu,hexibanyapengyoumenwannaozaiyiqidenver,zuoweimuqindetaxinliwuweizachen。
“woyihoudangranyaodaizaixibanya,wosuoyoudepengyoudouzaizheilia。”nvershuo。
liyamingbai,zaizuochuyimindejuedingdeneiyike,jiuyijingmaixialeyikemingjiaofenlidezhongzi。
(文中人物均为化名,特别鸣谢小红书博主“小英(Xiao Ying)”“Sándor”的支持。)
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