wen｜caijinggushihui ruchu

编辑｜万天南

mianduizhichangdejilieneijuan，xinshengjuanyi，huozheyouyitaobi，henduonianguo30sui、35suidezhichangren，qidaitongguokaoyan，jizanxinnengli，xunzhaoxintiaoban，kuaruxinsaidao。

buguo，zheixiedalingkaoyanrenhenkuaijiufaxian，tamendiaojinlelingyigejizhineijuandetiankeng。

zuijinjinian，kaoyanrenshuchixupansheng，cong2015niande165wan，jizengdao2023niande474wan。2024niansuiranhuiluodao438wan，danshineijuandebenzhisihubingmeiyougaibian。

genghekuang，2024nianyanjiushengluqulvzhiyou20%zuoyou，zheiyiweizhemei10renzhong，jiuyou8renmianlinzheluobang。

33suidewendaojiushiqiyi。

ciqian，tadoudouzhuanzhuanyumeitixingyehegongguangongsi，“doushixiyangchanye”，takanbudaochulu。2023nianxiabannian，xinshengjuanyidewendaoxuanzeluoci，quanzhikaoyan。weilezhunbeijinniandeyanjiushengmianshi，shenzhibuxicongshandongfeidaoshenzhen，zuihourengyiyifenzhichayihanluobang。

yifanzhetengzhihou，zhichangduandang、nangzhongxiusedewendaobeipozoulehuitoulu，“woxianzairuzhileyijiaxinmeitigongsi，shouruliaoliao，xiancouhezheba”。

zhiyuyaobuyaoerzhankaoyan，ganggangshibaiguoyicidewendaoyoudiandagu，“xianzandianqian，bannianhouzaishuoba”。

jintian，womenjiangjingtouduizhundalingkaoyanren，tamenjiujingweishayaonixiangdalingkaoyan？beikaoqijianyudaonaxienanti？shenghuolaiyuanruhebaozhang？zaizheichangwushengdekaoyandujuzhongyaxiachouma，zheiyiqiedenulidouzhidema？

dalingkaoyanren，qidai“taohuayuan”

“wofaxianwoconglaimeihe18suidezijihejie。”

sinianniancongxiaoxuexichengjiyouyi，kexigaokaofahuishichang，hemengzhongqingxiaobeidashizhijiaobei。

meiniangaokao，shiyinianzhongsiniannianzuinanguodejitian。

jiuxiangshijiejiadeshangkoumeiyiniandouhuibeifanfanfufujiekai，yicibiyiciteng。

ganghaotadangshigangcongshanghailuoci，huidaolaojiaxiaoxiancheng，lianxudeaoyejiabanrangtadeshentiaobuzhule。

turanxiuxixialai，sinianniandeguolejitianshufuderizi，danshihenkuai，tabianjuedehunhunee，shiquleduishijiandebakonggan，shentipilaowuli，meitianzaikandianyingshuajushuaweiboshuaxiaohongshuzhongduguo。

yitiantaturanshuadaole【diandilamei】dedianying，zhongxindianranleduikaoyandereqing。

taxiangyaozhongqirensheng，zhongxinduohuiduishijiandezhangkong，mibu18suideyihan。

duiquanzhibaomajingxinglaishuo，kaoyanshiduifaweishenghuodefankanghenahan。

jingxingchushenjinrongquan，shengwahouxuanzehuiguijiating，riziweizhehaizi、laogongzhuan。helaogongdejiaoliuyuelaiyueshao，yezhujianyushehuituojie。

tadeshenghuobeichamiyouyanhehaizideshiniaopitianman。guanxindebuzaishixingyesaidaogongsiguzhi，erchenglejintianchaoshizhiniaokuhejidandacuxiao。

meicidanglaogongxingzhibobotanqiyigeshehuirediandeshihou，tachulediantouzhiwai，yetanbuchushenmeqitadeguandian。

zheiheyiqianzaibianlunchangshangkangkaichenci、zaizhichangshangyongwangzhiqiandetawanquanshilianggeren。

tamomingdegandaohaipa，yehuanshanglechanhoujiaolv。

taxiwangtongguokaoyan，laizhongxinzhaohuineigeshencaifeiyangdeziji。

yizhiyilai，mafeidouguozheanbujiubandeshenghuo。putongdezhangxiang，duleputongdeerben，zhaolegeputongdexingzhenggongzuo，rizijiuzheiyangyizhiputongzhe，sihuyiyanwangdaotou。

yushi30suidemafei，juedingpannileyiba，gaplezhengzhengyinian，xiangyaoqutiyanyuefajingcaiderensheng。quxizangtubu、quguowaibengji、querbinchidongli、quziboshaokao……

riziguodeshijingcaifeifan。keshixiangyaozaihuiguizhichangdeshihou，faxianjianlitouchuqujibendoushi“yidubuhui”，jinyoudeyigemianshihaishibingbukaopudexiaoshou，dixinzhiyou1300。

“zaiguoneizhiyaogapguo，zhaogongzuohaoxiangjiubeipanlesixing。”mafeihenwunai，danshiduicankudexianshiyukuwulei。

kaoyan，sihuchengletadezuiyoujie。

远超预期的意外和困难

biyekuaishinian，siniannianzhuanyekexiangguanneirongwanquanwangdeganjing。“nixianzairangwolaijixinwenxiagedingyi，wodoushuobuchulaijigezi。”

一切都要从头再来。

shenzhi，shentisuzhihejiyilidoudaburuqianle。

siniannianzhiqianjiabandezhiyebing，jiuzuodehuayaoteng、jingzhuiteng。

benlaixiangzhexianbachuanboxuede400gemingcijieshichaoyixia，qimahungelianshu，meixiangdao，xieleyiqianduozi，jiuleideshouteng。xiaoshihouxiezuoyemoqilaidejianziyouweiweifanhong，ganjueyoulexindehuolile。

siniannianrenbuzhugenjiarentucao，“wozheishichushiweijieshouxianfei。”

（番茄时钟计时学习时长）

30suidelaoyaozhichengbulejiuzuo，siniannianzhinengdiaozhengxuexijihua，xiangzhongxueketangyiyangshezhifanqieshijian45fenzhong，xiuxi20fenzhong。meixuexiyigefanqiezhong，detangzaichuangshangxieyihui，yaoburanyaoshoubule。

xiangbijiaoshentidepilei，liujiahuayaochengshoudegengduodeshilaiziyufumuwushengdeyali。

“wobamasuiranbiaomianshangbingmeiyouzuzhiwokaoyan，danwozhidaotamenjuedewobulizhi。“liujiahuahenwunai，bijing，zaiyiguanchuantongdefumuyanzhong，youyigewendingdegongzuo，zaodianjiehunshengzi，caishirenjianzhengdao。

tamenhuimomodejiliujiahuazhuanfa，dangdixianchengdeshiyebianbaomingxiaoxi，huozheshipangqiaocejishuo，xxqinqijiadebiaodibiaomeijiehunle。

liujiahuayibanxiaozhefuyanguoqu，yaobujiushierbujian，maitoubeishu。

xiaolinyudaodewentigengrangrentouda， benlaixuanlegemoliu985，jiushiyinweikanzhonglexuexiaoluquderenduo，jieguoshanglaijiuyudaolesuozhao，yuanxianluqu100ren，xianzaizhishengxia45。

huoshengshengbeikandiaoleyibanderen，yezhijiekandiaolexiaolinyidabandereqing。

gengrangxiaolinzhuakuangdebujinshisuozhao，erqiecankaoshuyehuanleliangben，xiangdangyuzhiqiandesuoyounuliquandoufuzhiyiju。

xiaolinyibianmonian “tianjiangjiangdarenyusiren，bixiankuqixinzhi，laoqijingu”，yibianmomoliuleixiadanlingwailiangbenshu。

kaoqianyudaowenti，gengshishifendegaoxintai。bifangshijingzaibaomingdeshihou，chayidianjiufangqi，yinweizhunkaozhengzhaorenzhengshibai。

xianzaidabufenshengfenquerendoushixianshangjinxing，xuyaotijiaoshenfenzhengzhaopianhebenrenshouchishenfenzhengzhaopian，anlilaishuomeishenmedawenti，kepianpianduibideshidangniandaxuebiyezhengshangdezhaopian。

“sheinenghe10nianqianzhangdeyiyanga？”shijingjianzhiyaofengle，gangbiyedeshihouzijizhiyou105jin，xianzaizijishige160jindepangzi。yuanxiandeguazilianyebianchengleshuangxiaba，yanjingyebeiroujichengleyitiaofeng。

benlaishijingtedihualegedanzhuangquhaimatizhaozhengjianzhao，weilejianglaiduyanqijianyouyigemeimeidezhaopian，meixiangdaoshenhemeiyoutongguo。

shijingzhejidizaiwangshangxunzhaojiejuefangan，youxiaohuobanfenxiangzijichenggongjingyan——buyaomeiyan，buyaodaizhuang。zuihaoyongshoujiqianzhixiangjipai，yuechoutongguolvyuegao。yuelaiyueduoderenyanzhengzheishiyouxiaodefangfa，keshishijingyibianbianpaizhaoshangchuan，yibianbianyanzhengshibai。

di12cishibaihou，shijingrenbuzhujishanghaizhaoshengbandaledianhua，henzhibaidishuozijibishinianqianzhangle60jin。zhaoshengbandelaoshiyehenwunai，yinweiwangjieshengzhaopianbixuxianjingguoaizhinengbidui，cainengjingguoxiayiburengongshenhe。danshixianzaishijingbeikazailediyiguan 。

“aishibiebuguo，nikeyiyongaihechenga。yongmofadabaimofa。”zaipengyoudetixingxia，shijingyongaizhaoxiangguanshengchenglezijide“aizhengjianzhao”。buzhouhenjiandan，zhiyaoshangchuanshijizhangzijidaxuegangbiyedezhaopianzaijiashangjizhangjinzhao，aixiaochengxuzidongshengcheng。

kanzheyanqianzhei“jixiangyoubuxiangziji”deaizhaopian，shijingbaozheshishikandexintaishangchuankaoyanbaomingqueren。

“renzhengchenggong。zhunkaozhengzhaopianshangchuanchenggong”shijingzhangshuyikouqi，danshisuijiyoudanxinqilai，wanyikaoyandangtianbeilanzaikaochangwaizenmeban。

shijingyongaibiduizijidexianzhao、shenfenzhengzhaopianhezhunkaozhengzhaopian，jieguoxianzhaoheshenfenzhengzhaopianxiangsidu85%，shenfenzhengzhaopianhezhunkaozhengzhaopianxiangsidu85%。benrenhezhunkaozhengzhaopianxiangsiduzhiyou70%。

weici，shijingteyizaikaoshidangtiansuishendailezijidebiyezheng，tiqianzhunbeihaoyiduanjieshishuoci，xiangyaotiqianxianzuohaozhunbeiyifangbeika。

kaoyandangtian，ruchanganjianshi，shijingdouhuiteyijieshiyixia，zijizhangpangle。haozai，youjingwuxian。suiran，benrenhezhunkaozhengzhaopianxiangsidubushihengao，danshijiankaolaoshizaifenbieduibilebenrenheshenfenzheng，shenfenzhenghezhunkaozhenghou，jiubeiyunxujinchangkaoshi。

囊中羞涩，全职和在职两难全

dalingkaoyan，bixumianduideyigexianshiwentishi，qian。suiranzhongguixuexijiaose，danshirengranyaoshenghuo。fangzu、chifan、shenghuoyongpin、fuxiziliao，shenzhishifudaoban、zixishi……richangzhichunanmian，neimeqiancongheerlaini？

wukaiyuanrenweijishizhunbeikaoyan，yebunengduanleshourulaiyuan，suoyitaxuanzedeshizaizhibeikao。suoyitachulemeitianwanshangxiabandaojiawanbadiandaoshiyidiandexuexishijianwai，zhinengzhuajinyiqieshijian“jianfengchazhen”xuexi。tajiangzhuanyekebijidianzibandaorudaoweixindushushang，ranhouliyongshangbantongqindeshijianlai“tingshu”。zaigongsi，kaiyixiewuliaodedahuishi，chakongbeijishigedanci。

siniannianxinanlidedangqile“quanzhinver”，chizhudouzaijiali。juedingkaoyanzhihou，tagenfumuhenhaodegoutongleyici，xiangyaochenzhezijihaiyouchongjingerdeshihou，zaipinyiba。sinianniancongxiaoshenghuozaiyigeminzhudejiating，tadejuedingdedaolequanjiarendezhichi。

sanshisuizaijiakenlao，siniannianyebuhaoyisi，jiugenfumushuo，zijikeyizuofan。keshizheichuyishizaishinanyigongwei，bianchengdanlemeidunfanshuawandehuo。congxiao，siniannianzuitaoyandeshijiushishuawan，danshixianzaimeicidouxideganganjingjing。

yonglaodonghuanfangzu，siniannianzaianweiziji。

tongyangshizaijiaquanzhibeikao，yixianghaomianzidexiaowangshizaishinanyizaixiangbamazhangkouyaoqian。

suoyi，taxuanzequyeshibaitan。cong1688hepinduoduoshangjinyixiebianyihaokandexiaoshipin，meitianwanshangbai2gexiaoshi，haodeshihounengyouyibaiduodeshouru，suiranhezijicizhiqianyueruguowandeshourumeifabi，danshimaidianshenghuoyongpin、xuexiziliaodeqianshizugoule。

helingweizexuanzelehuidaonongcunnainaijiabeikao，meiyoushenmeshejiao，yemeifadianwaimai，zheiyangshenghuochengbengengxiao。suoyihuafeijibenshangyejiushikaolvziliaodeyixiehuafei，tajiubingchengzhe，“jianjuebubaoban，yejianjuebuhuayuanwangqian。

tadekaoyanjingjizhangbenyitankai，chulebaomingfei200zhiwai，zhimaileliangbenyingyudelinianzhentihe30kuaiqiandewangkeshipin。

hehelingweibutong，suiranyeshituochanbeikao，danshigongzuoqianjinian，yangyashoutouzanle10wankuaiqian。

zheicikaoyanshibaozhebishangdejuexin，suoyitahuale15,000kuaiqianbaoleyige1dui1baoguodefudaoban。yangyajuedezheibiqianshihuadebijiaozhi，qimashiyouzhuanyederenqujinizhidao，bubixiangwutoucangyingyiyangmeiyoufangxianglangfeishijian。

mafeihaiyouyibiewaidehuafei，jiushizaijiafujinbaoleyigekaoyanzixishi，yigeyueshi1800kuaiqian。

yinweizaijiaxuexi，youhuotaiduo，zikonglishizaishigewenti。shuzhuolichuangdejulihenjin，henrongyijiuxuezhexuezhejiuxiangtangzaichuangshang。

danshidaolezixishi，mafeiqimakeyizuodaoxinwupangwudedushu，bijingshihualezhenjinbaiyin，yegengyoudonglixuexi。

落了考研的榜，上了生活的岸

xiaoyuzai30suishengrideqianyitian，shoudaoleqinghuadeniluqutongzhi。

她动情地写道，

“18suidefengyueguolezhongzhongshangangzhongyulaidaolejintian。woyiranshizuihaodenianji。jingqingchun,yejingzhongqideyongqi。"

erjinianqian，hetalaizitongyigexiaoxianchengdehuangxuan，yezuochuledalingkaoyandejueding。31suikaoyan，33suibiyekaoshangbeijinggaoxiaodeshiyebian。

zaitakanlai，renshengmeiyoubaizoudelu，ruguomeiyoudangshijuedingkaoyandeyongqi，tayejiumeiyoujihuijianshidaogengguangkuodeshijie，kaiqibuyiyangderensheng。

dangran，bingbushisuoyourendouhuichenggongshangan。

keshi，suoyourendoushangleshenghuodean。

30suideliujiahuajiuzaikaoyanfudaobanlirenshilezijidelaogong，kaishileyiduanxiangcha6suidejiedilian。

suiranbingmeiyoukaoyanchenggong，danshisanguanyizhi，qingtouyihedeliangrenmairuxinhundediantang。yiniandeshijianli，liujiahuajiesuoleqizi、muqinduozhongjiaose。

gengkaixindeshiliujiahuadefumu，yinianqianhaizaiweinverrenxingyaokaoyanquejujuexiangqinershengqi，xianzaitiantianbaozhexiaowaisunxiaodehebulongzui。

suirandanglemama，danshiliujiahuahaishibazijideganshoufangzaishouwei。“woconglaimeihouhuiqukaoyan，shuobudingnayitianwoyouzhongxinbeikao。”

haiyoumafei，neigeshuozijizaizixishicainengxuejinqudemafei。tabingmeiyoushangan，danshi，takailejiamingjiao“shangan”dekaoyanzixishi。

“wozheirena，haishixihuanzheteng。wokanwoneigezixishitiantianmanyuan。woyizhuomo，zheishinenggana。”

mafeishigexingdongpai，shuoganjiugan，zaixiaoqulipanlege150pingdefangzi，jiandanbuzhizhihou，bianduiwaizhaozu。shengyihuobaodehen，yigeyuehuibenbushuo，haizhuanlexiaoliangwan。

zheibu，budaoyiniandeshijian，mafeiyijingcongzhaobudaogongzuode“dalingqiuzhigou”yaoshenbianchenglexiaolaobanle，jushuoxiageyuejiuzhunbeikaidierjiadianni。

ersiniannian，yijingzuohaoleerzhandezhunbei。yizhantabibeidaluquxianzhidile1fen，shifenyihan。

“neikeshibeidaa，nandaojiubuzhidezaiqufendouyicima？”

erqiekexikehedeshi，beikaoqijian，siniannianyizhizaishejiaopingtaishangjiluzijidekaoyanlichenghefuxifangfa。yiniandeshijian，buzhibujuezhangle1wanduofensi。

rujin，“kaoyanbozhu”deshenfenrangtameigeyueyouliangsanqiankuaideguanggaoshouru。

zheirangtadetuochanbeikaomeile“houguzhiyou”，yeyaoweizijidebeidamengzaichongyiba。

尾声

大龄考研值得吗？

zheishiyigejianrenjianzhidewenti。

danchunsuanjingjizhang，dalingduyansihubingbuneimehuasuan。

yiwei2023nianjietop3mingxiaoyingjieboshisheng，jiuhouhuiduodulejinianshu，“wojinnianboshibiye，nadaozuigaodeofferyejiunianxin60wan，zaikankanbiwozaogongzuojiniandebenketongxue，rujinnianxinbaiwanbuhanjian，shoulihaizanlejibaiwan，henxianmu”，taxiang《caijinggushihui》suku，“yaozouxueshudaolukeyidubo，dancankudeshi，duwanboshijingaoxiaoyehennan。”

erduiyuzhichanglaopaoerlaishuo，quanrizhiduyanhaiyiweizhezhichangdezhongduan。

genghekuang，rujinbushao985gaoxiao，tebieshiyierxianchengshideyuanxiao，yibuzaiweizhuanshuoshengtigongsushe，zheiwuyizengjialeqiuxuedejingjiyali。

anzhaoshichangjia，meiyueewaideliangsanqianfangzu，sannianxialaijiushiyibibuxiaodekaixiao，duyandezongchengbenkenenghuibiaoshengzhi20wan。

zailaikanyanjiushengjiaoyudequshi。jinnianlai，yanjiushengbaokaorenshuchixushangsheng，zhuanshuoshengdeluqubiliyezaizhuniantigao。cong2010niandexueshuoyuzhuanshuo3:1dezhaoshengbili，dao2023nianzhuanshuobaokaorenshuchaoguo6cheng，shenzhizaiqinghuadaxuezheiyangdedingjianxuefu，zhuanshuoyuxueshuodebiliyijingdadaole74%yu26%。zheiwuyixianshilezhuanshuojiaoyuderiyishouzhongshi。

huidaozhichangxianshi，duiyuxuduozhuanyelaishuo，benkexuelijiashangsanniandegongzuojingyan，kenengzaizhichangshangbigangbiyedeyanjiushenggengjujingzhengli。

erduiyushitutongguoduyan，laibaituo35suizhongnianweijidedalingzhichangren，“duyanzhihoumashangkuai40suile，gengbuhaozhaogongzuoleba”，zheiyeshiwendaodegulv。

raner，renshengconglaimeiyoubiaozhundaan，zhengruneiqunniliuerxingdedalingkaoyanrenyiyang，ting10000zhongshengyin，danzhongjiuzhinengzouzijidelu。

（本文人名均为化名）